Random Musings….
The word is “differences.” Strange as it may seem, but I came to realize that it’s our individual differences that gauges our relationships and how we deal with other people. I used to think that if I will just set aside my own wants and needs in life so as to give way for that of others, then I am being the bigger and better person. But it just doesn’t work that way. I always do other people’s favors, even sometimes when I don’t really want to do them in the first place, but I’d still do it anyway, in hopes that by doing so, I am doing a good job of being someone’s friend. But in the end, it all boils down to honesty. To yourself, and to the people around you. If you will just bow down to the needs of others, and eventually forget about yourself in the process, then it just means that you’re not being true to who you are.
Life really ain’t that simple. It’s not always about compromise on your part, it has to come from other people as well. May it be from a lover, a friend, etc. May seem easier said than done, but sometimes you just need to think of yourself to avoid losing yourself in the process. It’s in the differences that comes compromise, and it’s in compromise that comes understanding. This will take a lot of time for me to fully absorb because all my life, I’ve been afraid of rejection….
I never tell people how I truly feel, in fear of not being taken seriously or of being rejected, and then eventually, being left alone. This is maybe why my past relationships all went downhill. The fault is on me, because I never did anything to fix things. I just pretended to be strong about things, and never tell other people that I’m hurting because I’m afraid that if I lose the happy persona that the other people have gotten used to when they see me, I’d end up losing my friends. I know it’s stupid, but that’s how I think sometimes.
Oh well, so much for my random thoughts for the day. I better stop writing now, or else I won’t stop writing at all. Pardon my nonsense. Just needed a way to vent for my random, fickle thoughts.
….of dealing with it or not at all
A lot of things have been going on in life lately, and there are times when I just can’t keep up with it anymore. I’ve been too busy trying to ignore my problems only to end up realizing that things are now beyond my control. I’ve always stood by the belief that it will all just fade away, that one day I will just wake up and find that everything was fine. But then again just now, I wake up realizing the opposite. Turns out, trying not to keep up with life leaves me with a lot more pain to be dealing with. It’s like the pandora’s box wherein you try to hide all the bad things in your life have one day, sprung open, leaving you with no other choice but to deal with it and just be strong.
I guess all I’m trying to say here is that, there’s nothing wrong with being hurt and trying to surrender to that pain. Trying to mask what you truly feel will only give you an even more hurtful pain in the long run. Like all wounds you get in your skin, let it bleed. One day it will all heal, and leave you with nothing but a scar to remind you of the pain you once felt.
On Hold.
It’s been a long time since I last posted an entry. I barely have the time to regularly update this blogsite like I normally do the last few months. When I have the time, I don’t think I have the energy to be crazy emotional, or be creative or even be flamboyant to write about anything. So I just chose not to just write for the sake of writing. But since it’s the new year and I think I have the energy for now, let me just go ahead and try to write something, not just for the sake of having an entry.
Just a question for all you guys. Have you ever felt as if you’re life, you’re every happiness, all that you hold dear in your life has been placed on hold because for a long time you’ve been waiting for that special someone, that Romeo, that knight geared in his sparkling shining armor to walk into your life and sweep you off your feet? And when he finally comes, tells you that he feels the same way and yet he’s just not ready to commit himself fully in fear of being a disappointment, or of hurting you in the process, and that he still has bigger dreams for himself and for the responsibilities he still needs to tend to, how are you supposed to feel about that? Are you supposed to feel glad that at the end of the day, the guy you think is right for you actually feels the same way that you do? Or are you supposed to feel scared of not ever imagining yourself with someone else? Scared of the thought that you have been unintentionally given false hope and that even though he loves you, he will never ever act upon those feelings, because his own dreams in life are bigger than his love?
How do you place yourself in this kind of situation? Do you just cry about it? Do you just talk this over with your friends, whose stories of love may seem a lot more miserable than yours making you feel guilty for even complaining at the first place? Do you just write about it and express it fully on your blogsite? Do you talk this over with the other person involved, with the fear of losing him completely in the process? Or do you just enjoy the moment, and just let the chips fall where they may for now?
Just simple questions…. purely hypothetical. :))
The title of the movie speaks for itself. It’s basically about 3 middle-aged men dedicated to their respective jobs… but let’s just say they’re not really so crazy about their bosses. In a one hypothetical discussion, Kurt wondered if his other friends ever fantasize about killing their bosses. That’s where the crazy idea of all the boss-killing-murder-consulting-mayhem begins.
The movie was actually very funny! It’s one of those movies where you just laugh all the way through to the end. All of the actors seem like their having fun and does play off each other very well. I must commend Jennifer Aniston as the sexual harassing boss. She was hilarious! I didn’t even recognize her immediately because I’ve always known her on her sweet, girl-next-door type of roles.
This is definitely a must-watch if you’re just looking for a good laugh and just pure fun. This can definitely put your mind off your actual stress from your work (even if the whole movie involves characters being stressed about their bosses).
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In life, it doesn’t really matter how good your intentions are or how nice you are to the people around you. At the end of the day, people WILL always have something to say against you. People who care about you will always tell you to not let those “petty” things get to you. But that’s always easier said than done. It’s never easy knowing that even when you know you have put your best forward, some people will never actually approve of you.
But still, life goes on. As long as you still find happiness and as long as there’s still people who will believe in you no matter what, then all those naysayers can go ahead and say what they wanna say. ;)
Admit it: at one point in our lives we’ve all been stressed, depressed, insecure, and suicidal. This movie is a homage to all those natural feelings that we have encountered more than once in our lives. Oh, what I would give to live carefree just for one day without having to worry about the stress of being frowned upon, judged, and having to live up to the expectations of others.
Craig Gilner’s (Keir Gilchrist) life may seem to appear to look good on paper. He’s got a family who loves him, some good friends, the brains, the money, a good school and he’s even good looking. But somehow, he seems to have been caught up with having to live up to the standards that life has for him. He finds himself depressed at all times and at one time, suicidal. He checks in to a psych ward and ends up finding himself and appreciating life as it is.
At one point in our lives, we have been like Craig Gilner. On the outside, it may seem as if we’ve got life all figured out. But in reality, we don’t really know what we’re doing. We always look for more ways to be happy and always find reasons as to why our lives are not at all what it seems.
Pakibaba yung dyaryo please, hihi.
